Organic Apple Picking Season

Finally letting go of all attachments that
have proven to be no more than
Restraints...
Learning to know which battles are actually
worth the fight
Its as if a light has finally come on
and casted a light on all that was hidden in the darkness
as soon as my eyes have adjusted
I  realized that my surroundings were unfamiliar
I felt I didn't belong however that familiar song
kept playing in the background soundtrack of my life
Mariah's Always Be My Baby
on repeat
tears dropped from my eyes
and i cried and cried
like i never cried before
because the theme that played
 was way too familiar
a song that i have gotten tired of living over and over
again
Different times
different friends
but the feeling remained
true
that i will always feel the way
i felt the first time  i expressed myself to u
Once I realized that I can't compete
and also noting that if i could
i still would
opt not to
It's Not that I don't feel for u
I just learned to feel for me more
I learned my ins and outs and finally know what
i can live with
and without
Heart ache is one of the things i realized
I don't need
No explanation needed
i can read
btwn the lines
u are truly one of a kind
I am too
and no matter
how much searching u or i do
u'll neva find anyone as true as i was to u
or u to me
So many fish in the sea
But its apple picking season for me
Rather than grabbing the ones on the ground
i'll pick the highest one up
on the highest branch in the
tree
That is the apple that will bring out the best in me
No holes, no worms just as perfect as can be!
The apple that i choose will be of the highest organic quality...
No pesticides, GMO's  and free to love me  and his actions will  show
just that...
Actual Fact!

Granted Space

Space
Given time to ponder
to gain a clear picture
of where i came from
and where i'm going
Admitting that I'm not the all knowing
Sometimes u have to love from a distance
Quite a resistance I always seem 2 encounter
by my soul not wanting or knowing how to
let go.
however i learned its the way of life.
Khalil Gibran said it best

“Let there be spaces in your togetherness, And let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love: Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls. Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup. Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf. Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone, Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music. Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping. For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts. And stand together, yet not too near together: For the pillars of the temple stand apart, And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow."

With that I set you free to be who you be 

as i will be who I am.

  Until Our Minds Meet Again...

 

 

`

Can't get away...Not sure if I want to..

New Mind
Rewind to the time before
the changes ensued
I thought i was in charge of my destiny
thought i could get rid of his hold on me
to realize this is bigger than he
its bigger than me
and at the end I had to submit to somebody
 or shall i say something
who would have ever thought
it would be u in the end...
Unhand me I say
release my heart from your
clutches
I yearn to be free
Every time i get my wings and begin to
soar they become clipped
as i become eclipsed
covering my eyes and cowering in the brillance
Light emanating all around I bow down only
to those that show true dominance
I know to u this may not make any sense
In fact i'm still trying to figure it out myself
how did i get here
 i need a way out
i try to run and hide
 but its too late
i have already been found
The truth of who I really am
 I already told you in complete confidence
Even though i told you this
u never tried to
take advantage
nor ever looked at me as being damaged
you just continued to respect me and
continued to explore all there is that makes up
Equality
I must say you almost know every square inch of me
So, whenever you decide to stop riding the bench
let me know
Starting lineup is certainly where someone of your
caliber must go
I at least know that much for sure...lol