Thank You (Paintbrushes)

At one time I thought the world was black and white
Until you let me use your paintbrushes
and then I began to c
that the world had colour
and color in it.
So many combinations from pink to blue
I decided to take the colors that I had
discovered
and  paint my world all over
new
I suggest that u do the same too
cus the colors that paint my reality
are just so pretty to me
Get you some paintbrushes and u will c
How adding more vibrant colors to your life can be.

SILLY??? NOT!

 Silly - Deniece Williams
I am not silly
No matter how many times my friends begin to sing that song to me
That is not something I can ever be
I made sure I did
All of the things to guard me
in this instance
so even if he is distant
i am protected
I am comfortable with keeping the company of me
i define me whether he is beside me or not
So, NO!
I AM NOT SILLY!

in for the long haul...

New Focus
New Plan
Same Man
If anyone can make changes i certainly can
I will try my hand at a different approach
Aligned with the right coach
i can tackle any obstacle
No problem is too big or too small
I will tackle them all
with the same tenacity
If anyone has the audacity
to doubt how sincere I am
Let the Games begin!
If you feel the need to put my love to the test
I have no choice but to manifest
how real it really is
I am always game for a pop quiz
In the end you are going to find out what it is
And what it has always been 
I am not going anywhere my friend.

Can't Go Against Nature...

Indecision Breeds
Missed opportunities
or so u were told
in the days of old
that may have held true
but today 
what does it say?
Out of desperation some may hold on
waiting for their number to be called
I won't be one of those that fall for that trap
I am glad I had the opportunity to get my life on track
I got rid of a few of those baggage sacks
Realizing how they ravaged my life
Vowing to take over full control
taking it all back
In fact,
I had to beg and plead to keep things intact
was it self esteem that i lacked?
or was i just full of love for you?
is that wrong?
Having a love so strong
that you prolong the pain of not having what you
truly desire
Hearts on fire
Knowing deep down that you may be nothing more than a liar
Am I comfortable being lied to by u?
How do I suppose to know if that is how you truly feel
if your actions always reveal
something different
as u place me on the shelf from time to time again
Am i just someone u can laugh and joke about to your friends?
When I make amends that means I want to start all over again
No one likes to lose one of their most cherished friends...
Is it a sin to feel the way I do about u
As simple as 1 and 1 makes 2
Is how easy it is for me to love u
the way that i do
This isn't fun at all
every time i take that fall
i can here the laughter at my embarrassment
hating to fall especially in the sight of others
I decide to take cover this time
Hiding in plain sight
I realized this feeling isn't something I can fight
How can the moon decide not to reflect the sun's light?