Can't Go Against Nature...

Indecision Breeds
Missed opportunities
or so u were told
in the days of old
that may have held true
but today 
what does it say?
Out of desperation some may hold on
waiting for their number to be called
I won't be one of those that fall for that trap
I am glad I had the opportunity to get my life on track
I got rid of a few of those baggage sacks
Realizing how they ravaged my life
Vowing to take over full control
taking it all back
In fact,
I had to beg and plead to keep things intact
was it self esteem that i lacked?
or was i just full of love for you?
is that wrong?
Having a love so strong
that you prolong the pain of not having what you
truly desire
Hearts on fire
Knowing deep down that you may be nothing more than a liar
Am I comfortable being lied to by u?
How do I suppose to know if that is how you truly feel
if your actions always reveal
something different
as u place me on the shelf from time to time again
Am i just someone u can laugh and joke about to your friends?
When I make amends that means I want to start all over again
No one likes to lose one of their most cherished friends...
Is it a sin to feel the way I do about u
As simple as 1 and 1 makes 2
Is how easy it is for me to love u
the way that i do
This isn't fun at all
every time i take that fall
i can here the laughter at my embarrassment
hating to fall especially in the sight of others
I decide to take cover this time
Hiding in plain sight
I realized this feeling isn't something I can fight
How can the moon decide not to reflect the sun's light?