Cloaked Thoughts

i find myself at a crossroads in life
pondering a choice between present and future
the present is familiar but it isn't always pleasant
the future is cloaked in the unknown 

Wondering what threads
would adorn me today

As i look through my wardrobe
I pick out the best outfit that suits me

Something not so tight
Fitting just right

At least I thought i picked the right outfit tonight
But somehow now that I step outside of the house
everything doesn't look alright anymore

The way the outfit laid on my curves
Got on my nerves

So I went home and changed

Now this new outfit...
Well lets just say I got to get used to
the way it flows

But the nods i get when I step outside
this girl knows
she looks fine

Now i know u know this poem has nothing
to do with clothes it represents
my mind.

Back On Point

tear drenched cheeks
fear begins to speak
louder today
than yesterday
feeling the change in seasons
so no reason to cry
it will all be followed by the teasings
the i told you so's and pleadings
How did i get back here?
at a place i vowed to never return to
i had once made up my mind to divorce
the entire concept of love
just because i am sick and tired of the games involved
change names
still the same
nobody got time for all of that
time to grab my life back
out of loves hands
because if  i  don't no telling where i will land
this last time i was caught up
it was  as though i was in
quick sand
lesson learned
 watch what hand
u take
to lead u to freedom
cus right now
my heart is bleeding
i toldja so season in full effect
getting my feelings in check
I was caught slipping
yeah i know i was tripping
B.u.t. I'm back on point

Moonbeam

Moonbeam
Social commotions
Leads to mixed emotions
About my Being
Am I seeing
things clearly?
or am i merely
creating a fantasy image?
So vivid
So real
that i feel
it’s the real thing when it really isn't
or maybe it is
when we are together i feel like we're little kids
having fun living out our inner most desires
so safe to say they were all liars
when they said
there is no such thing as true love
this one seems to have been sent from above
i have come to realize that chivalry was
dead a long time ago
yet this one had decided to show me
that just wasn't so
And He did it with the love that He showed
I was taken aback
to realize and know
that my calcified thinking just had to go
There was no way for us to grow 
until i divorced everything i know and thought i knew
much to my surprise he was making me all over brand new

At first I was startled by the changes b.u.t. with all the
rearranges i began welcoming 
all changes
strange as it seemed
I welcomed Him on my team
Smiles gleam
The moon beams
True love so it seems

Equilibrium

Love and Pain
go hand and hand
Like man and woman
Lonely thoughts give way
to Love's embrace
Only to have it all thrown back into
ones face
A bitter taste
after
tasting the syrupy sweet
Being swept off my feet
Only to be dropped
Heart stopped
A feeling of being caught
between a rock
and hard place
I braced for a fall and realized
that thud
Never happened
Life in closed caption
Words expressed 
in broken translations
Heart sensations
Resisting temptations
Because I am stronger than that
So I sat
and thought about my actions
One of Life's infractions
 Realizing true satisfaction
Is
Quality over Quantity
Not allowing just anyone inside of me
Not upsetting the balance is key
on maintaining Equality
Follow me?

You're in Good Hands

I was once afraid to explore the deep recesses of love
I was convinced to dwell on the banks
I always thought I really knew what love was and what
It meant to love someone
Boy was I wrong
I never knew the deep intimacy involved
The exploration of what caused my heart to palpitate
So my heart and mind finally resonating
a sense of unifying with my higher self

Petrification
Describes how I felt
When asked, my closest friends they said do as u shalt
No resistance encountered

As each day goes by
We draw closer and closer
Emotional roller coaster
One that I don't want to get off because
I c the larger picture
And it’s worth the cost

I put away the need to always be the boss
But of course
If it’s needed I know how to retrieve it
I really like the way he has me feeling
Constantly revealing more of who I am
With no fear
insight

Especially that night
When he made everything alright
In fact he knows the importance of
Communication

The sensation I get when I hear his voice
As I ponder in my mind did I make a good choice?
Then he always does something that cosigns my original
sentiment
He is a gentleman
to say the least
He had the authority to tame my inner beast
The one that comes forward to keep certain people back
Making sure my heart stays in tact

He had a way of keeping all that at bay
Then I remembered all those nights I stayed up to pray
To send this type of man my way.
So I stopped with all that too good to be true jazz
and realized that sometimes the first is last and the last is first
He is your reward for your rebirth

You have been on a continuous journey throughout  life
And if you pay close attention at all the times you didn't seem to
get just  right.
There was always someone better along the road that made things
alright.

So tonight
Erase all fears
It's ok to take another route
And this time realize
 this is your reward for all of your bouts
So there's no need to doubt
You’re in good hands